What is love to you? Different books and sites may define it differently but whatever definition you go for one thing is certain, if you love someone prove it. Love is the reason I’m writing this, a girl who is still in love with a guy who moved on with someone else.For a minute I have been questioning myself and I have had my self-esteem go on a down low because someone does not get me, love me or even appreciate me but I came to the realization that their opinion said nothing about my worth and I should not let people define who I truly am.I have given love a few shots in my life and they say a woman who opens her heart to love someone, when her heart is already broken, is braver than any person you will ever meet and true to those words am the bravest person I know because no matter how destroyed, damaged and broken I am, I still open my heart to love and although each time I always end up broken, I have never given up on love.I am your ‘almost girl’, That relationship “almost” worked out kind of story who met that guy who “almost” fully committed who had “almost” all the qualities I had been praying for.
That girl who always seem to be left out, or guys just disappear that I honestly thought would stick around and prayed they would, for a while had me feeling like am easy to leave and hard to love.The drill is usually the same the texts dwindled and phone calls ceased, that feeling that you are bugging or annoying the only person you want to talk to and before you know it the door closes and your heart breaks.My mistake is I have a good heart, I love hard through the good and the bad, you can bet I will still be your no.
1 fan and invest my all in a relationship. I give too many chances even after someone showing me who they truly are because I’m that kind of person and for this reason I set myself up for heart-breaks and disappointments.The only love I have ever known has always hurt me and may be the reason I find myself holding on to those who cause me pain (Love is complicated sigh!).This year I have had my heart fucked over and over by the people that I never saw going a day without and just like most girls, I was not looking for perfection just someone who was real to love and those who know me, know am that down to earth chic that would risk it all jus to see the person she loves happy, that kind of lady who doesn’t mind material stuff but treasures the simple things in life that money cannot buy. This year alone, I have contemplated suicide a few times; but am still here thinking there is a guy out there who will not leave me like the rest and will be glad to have me and, maybe then, will I understand why it never worked out with the rest.My take is that a relationships is a 24/7 kind of job that requires a lot of time and effort and commitment and of course two willing souls, if you find someone who is willing to meet you half way do not let go of them because in this “wahala” generation money comes before love.
I admire that kind of love where you build an empire from nothing with someone, fight through the good and bad and that kind of love that never gives up easily. Babe effort is everything, to me, it is a TURN ON!”A true relationship is of two imperfect people refusing to give up on each other and for all fuckboys/girls out there, kindly do not arouse a man/woman’s feelings if you have no intention of loving her and inconsistencies kill the vibe, it’s either you need sugar in your tea or salt in your food, you cannot mix the two in your tea”Relationship advice for those in love, crushing on somebody or secretly in love, do not waste your time trying to figure out what your partner is thinking. Why did they do that, why did they hurt me or why are they acting that way? Since in doing so you neglect to take accountability for your own life and fail to realize that it is never what they have done but rather what we allow them to do, so, next time a nigga/lady treats you badly, disrespects you, cheats on you, lies or anything remember what you allow is what will become.